Look mom, I'm A fish!

I drank 96 ounces of water yesterday. 96 OUNCES!!! I peed every 30 seconds. I had 10 carbs. ALL FREAKIN DAY.

I didn't lose an ounce.

I'm NOT happy.

I carted 7 loads of laundry back & forth across the street through the snow.

I did my dishes, shined my sink.

I vacuumed my room and folded and put away those 7 loads of clothes.

Not a friggin ounce.

GRRRRRRRR.

GODDAMN GODDESS

So, the closer we get to my birthday, the more i freak out. i DO NOT want to turn 29. i feel like i'm about ready to be put out to pasture. This is some sort of stupid mental block i have. i know plenty of women in their 40s and 50s i find incredibly hot and sexy. The last woman i had in my bed was 36 and she was steaming hot. i do not feel this way about other women, but for myself... Oh fuck it.

Anyway, i have decided that instead of my normal approach of whining, crying, and having a nervous breakdown, i am GOING TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. No, i can't change my age, but i CAN change how i feel about it. So this year, i am going to work on all the things that make me feel bad about myself. i am going to look forward to my 30th birthday, because after a year of hard work i am going to be a goddamn goddess.

Watch and see.

for the first time in a long time,

I am grateful for a new year! In the past, I've only looked at how lousy the previous year was and figured, well, great - another year to screw up in. I always felt like a slob. I don't feel like that anymore. Sure, my house still falls apart, but it's so much easier to pick it back up again. My kids and hubby are helping (sometimes) and that is SUCH a big boost for me. I am psyched. I took a bit of a vacation from my healthy eating habits in December, although our meals were almost always still healthy, all the extra crap (candy) was there and kept me from losing an ounce. I didn't gain, but I sure didn't lose. So now, all the candy is gone, except for the stuff I don't eat anyways (candy canes - yuck!) and I feel stronger again. I'm ready for 2006 and ready to hit my next goal of 180 by my birthday (March 12th for those of you wonderful readers who want to send gifts, money, etc!) lol I think I can do it, and I KNOW I will try!

As for you, my partner in crime - I'm SO PROUD OF YOU! Your change of attitude is what will get you through this. You've had a setback but you're not crying about it, you're DOING SOMETHING! Woohoo! Hopefully by the time we meet in March, I'll be at my goal and you will be closer to yours! *BIG HUGS*

New Year, New Dedication

So, here it is 2006. i am in such a good mood because all things are possible. For the first time ever i understand why everyone makes such a fuss about the new year. i feel like i have a brand new canvas to paint my life on.
Here are my resolutions for 2006.
1) Appreciate what i have more. Instead of focusing on what's wrong, learn to focus on what is RIGHT. And, that's a hell of a lot.

2) Stick to a healthier pattern of eating and exercising. i know i cannot be perfect all the time, and that its important to treat myself now and then. But, i also know i have to make a LIFESTYLE change. i made great strides with this in 2005. In 2006 i plan to move forward with this. Refining, replacing, and finding a lifestyle that works for me.

3) Continue my work on laying my past to rest and finding peace from it at last.

4) Bring order and routine to my life to increase my sense of stability and security. FLY routines, set bedtime and rise times, habits and self reliance.

There we go. This year, i am going to learn to soar.

happy (that it's over) holidays?

Well, I survived, although I cheated bigtime yesterday on the eating front. But according to the scale today, I'm no worse for the wear. At least so far. I'm still up about 4 lbs from the 210 I was so pleased to attain, though, and that's pissing me off royally! I'll be so happy to get all this candy out of my house!

But still, to end the year weighing 66 lbs less than I did when I started is an accomplishmnet, so I'll take it.

As for keeping things clean, it's really hard, but I try not to let it get me down. Trying to get routines down help, because if you have a routine, you KNOW you're gonna clean that part again tomorrow anyways. I mostly try to enjoy whatever IS clean while it is clean lol

I don't make resolutions, but I do plan on returning to my more strict eating style after the holidays are done and gone. I'm also going to figure out a new goal for my birthday, and hope to hit it :)

Fluttering

So, i'm trying. my house looks like a holiday tornado hit it, but i'm going fly it back into shape today. Out with Christmas and time to start preparing my house for the new year. i have oodles of resolutions, which i'll post closer to the actual day. The thing i'm having a hard time with right now, is learning to fly with my husband and the kids underfoot. i don't know how you do it Dawn. As quick as i clean something, they mess it up. Is it time for them to go back to work and school yet?

Crashed

i still exist. i have not been being very good on my diet. So while i have been good enough to not gain... i haven't lost any more either. i have to get back on track, but honestly right now, i'm just trying to not gain weight through the holidays.
i am still flying, but not in the totally great way i was. my house is not a disaster but always in a state of flux. i miss my old habits and routines. i slept better, felt better about myself, and was just generally DOING better.
i am trying to get back on track. my son is potty training and that is pretty hard to cope with. Autism and potty training are a recipe for insanity. However, i'm working on it. Things will be patchy with me until the new year. This time of year is just nuts. However at that point i will be putting a HUGE amount of my time and energy into getting back into the healthy habits and routines i had established. And, creating new ones.

Congratulations Dawn... i admire you and your willpower so much.

yay, got rid of that damned plateau

So I'm finally down to 211! Yay for me. :D

I'm going to be posting some new recipes on My Tasty Space that I've been using with great success - one of them is from a recipe card I picked up at a Super Walmart and was fantastic. Even the kids loved it.

I went to the walmart where I used to work yesterday and a former co-worker says to me "god, every time I see you, it seems you're losing weight!" I said "67 pounds & counting!". She asked what hubby thought of this, and I told her he doesnt' care either way - he's happy with the way I was, but he's proud of the changes I've made... and that's an awesome feeling.

I've also quit taking those damned birth control pills, and I've got some feeling back in some of those places I didn't have any feelings in, so things are really turning around! Yay for me!

Well, I'm back

You'll be seeing a bit of a change in this blog. I'd thought that , well the hell with it - if no one else is interested in posting, why should I? But you know what? This blog was very therapeutic to me, so if they want to dump it, that's their choice, but it's not mine. Angel assures me that she's still flying, and trying to eat right, so her & I are back. We're here to celebrate our successes and strategize over our not-so-successes.

So, here I am. I've lost a total of 67-66-65 lbs - I say that becuase I've been waffling between 213 and 215 for weeks now. It's driving me CRAZY! I have been slowing adding the carbs back - not in the usual amounts, not by a LONG shot. But I will have a slice of bread every once in a while, which I've figured out to slice in half the hard way and make a sandwich with! It's amazing what that does to your head, not feeling like you're missing out quite so often.

I admit I don't get much exercise now. It's just too damned cold here to go walking. But I will be happy to just maintain through these darned holidays and feel like I've achieved something on the other side. And hey, 65 lbs is nothing to sneeze at, right?

I love the fact that my clothes are too big LOL I haven't had as dramatic a size drop as angel had, but hey, I bought a size 20 pair of "stretch" jeans for myself the day after thanksgiving and they fit! I thought "Well, I'll save these until I can fit into them" - hubby said "Try them on" so I did and HEY!!! They fit! They're fitted, so you can see my legs, and it makes me feel better than the other jeans that I was so psyched to finally get into! Those aren't stretch, so when I did fit into them, I was really excited. I hadn't worn them in 10 years! I haven't been below 220 lbs in 10 years. I really am proud of myself, even if I do cheat every once in a while. But I'm not going to go back to the way I/we used to eat, and I think that's the most important thing of all.

Even though Subway and Quiznos is calling me BIG TIME lately. lol

Last night, I was putting on some eye liner, getting ready to go out to my munch and realized that my face had changed. I can see my cheekbones. I can see my jaw bone! My glasses don't rest on my face anymore - just on my nose. "This is COOL!" I thought.

As for flying, I'm still doing pretty good. I do have my days when I just don't have the energy to do anything. I think that had something to do with the health problems and whatnot, and I'm trying to take care of those too. I've stopped taking the Pill, and am hoping that will help. I've started taking my St. John's Wort again, in hopes that that'll help too. It always used to. But my house isn't in CHAOS, so that's something. I washed the floors yesterday, which did take a toll on my back, but it was sorely needed. I cleaned our downstairs bathroom, which honestly was disgusting. I never clean it because it's disgusting LOL Well, now it's manageable and I'll try to remember to swish & swipe whenever I go in there. The tree is up, most of the presents are bought and I'm actually impatient with the markets because they don't have their Christmas hams on sale yet LOL Then I stopped and thought...w ait, this is only dec. 7th LOL

So, I love the Flylady and I'm so grateful for having found her. I am glad that the routines are sticking with angel, who is having a really rough time with her potty-training son, so I hope when she has a free moment to post here, she'll update us on her work too.

Thanks for visiting, and I hope you'll be back :)

An update from me

Apparently, I'm the only member left here. Sheesh, can you hear the echos?

Anyways, I'm up to 58 lbs, thanks to a LOVELY, LOVELY bout of lactose intollerance yesterday (3 lbs in one day!), and 56.25 inches. For the most part, I feel good, though I've not been getting nearly enough exercise. With it getting dark so early now, it's hard to get out and get it done, along with dinner. So this weekend, I got this exercise machine off of Freecycle and I'm hoping it'll help. I'd really prefer a treadmill, though, so I'll keep a lookout anyways.

In the area of flying, I've been a bad flybaby. My house is still manageable, but thanks to THREE inspections last week, only 1 of which actually happened, I had a few marathon cleaning sessions. I'm trying to get back into my 15 minute intervals though, and will do so today. I might be getting company this weekend, so I'd like the house to look like it did last week. Of course, a weekend, a birthday for my son and my 18 hr. interlude with my hateful body did alot to undo what I've done. I've also got a ton of laundry to do. UGH!!

So, that's me for now. Oh, and I have posted more recipes over at My Tasty Space!

~Me

Hi everyone

Sassy, I'm glad to hear that you are trying. That's the hardest part, I think. To actually DO something when ya just don't feel like it. I've been doing that too - even if it's just the basics. I much prefer it when I can walk through my house and, except for wherever my kids are, everything's straightened, non-cluttered, etc. Of course, that doesn't happen much, but it's NICE when it does!

My eating has gotten better. Hubby & I are trying to keep each other motivated, and we're constantly looking for new recipes, etc. to do this right. He looks so good, as he's lost about 25 lbs here & there in the last 4 months and I know he feels better. I'm up to 48 lbs lost and am quite proud of myself. I was worried, because I started on a medication last week that says may cause weight gain, but it didn't. Woohoo!

I've been posting recipes on my recipe site, in case anyone needs some motivation. Angel & I are gonna start flying again today, I hope, and that'll help me get my house in better shape. We're going into the holidays soon, ladies, and it's so MUCH easier to do when your house is happy :)

I am sorry that we seem to have lost Kay and perhaps millie? I wish they'd post and let us know how they're doing. *poke nudge*

Well, that's it for me for now. Have a great week, ladies!

Hey - I'm not dead after all!

Sorry for the long silence, everyone. This is the first time I've even sat down at the computer in a week. So much to do! I've not been walking the last couple of weeks, but that's because I've been trying to stick to my morning routine. I'm still not perfect, but I'm trying! I've cooked dinner every night this week - and I survived! My sink has been mostly shiny, and I have plenty to do tonight, but I just had to take a minute to check in here. Let's keep encouraging each other!

Checking IN

All is going fairly well as far as my flying goes. Angel and I had confab the other day and it felt great, kind of kick started me again. Thank you so much Angel.




I have lost again and am now back down to 210. It seems to be the number I am stuck on, but I have regressed in my water. I will try to kick it back up because trust me ladies, I have learned the importance of water. One little trick I learned to make it go down easier, is to add a bit of lemon to it, makes it so much better.




Well, hope to hear from all of you soon, hope all is going well.

OK, I'm here again

So, I think I'm feeling better today. At least I find myself sitting here thinking about what I should do while the kids are still sleeping... but damn, there's a t-storm just moved in, so I'll be back in a little while to tell you what I got accomplished so far. :)

ok, I'm back. So this morning, I've posted 2 more recipes to Tasty Space, updated my photo blog, my other blog and now this one. I've just done my measurements and I'm happy to say I'm up to 41 inches lost. I notice it in places like my hips where my nightgown use to get stuck, now it hangs! I love that! Of course, all my clothes are too big for me, but I don't want to even bother buying stuff now. I'll just keep waiting a bit longer LOL

It IS nice, though. I tried on a dress that I'd bought for my sister's wedding 5 years ago. It barely fit then, but I managed. It had been in my closet that long because I never wore it again. Well, now it fits! It buttons down to the bottom, so those of you who have any weight on you KNOW that buttons always tell the truth. That's why I never wore it again. Now it falls perfectly and it's so pretty. I'm glad I hung on to it.

So anyways, I feel better today, even with this stupid rain and impending visit of my ex husband. We've remained friends, so I don't mind him visiting. I mind the lousy weather and the change of all our "outdoor" plans that will inevitably take place now. I actually VOLUNTEERED to go mountain biking! *pout*

Anyways, I hope all my fellow flybabies are ok. Angel told me Millie was in the way of Ophelia, so I hope that her & her family are ok. Kay, where are you? C'mon, please participate! :)

~Me

Hello ladies

Well, I made such a yummy dinner tonight, I'll be posting the recipe on My Tasty Space right after this. Even my son, who won't even LOOK at a can of tuna, ate the fish. :)

I've been holding my own as far as my weight. I haven't managed to lose much, but I havent' gained back, so I figure that's gotta be something. I've been cooking healthy, but cheating on snacks like crazy. This weekend while shopping, hubby took the time to look at a million different labels to find some decent snacking options for us, because yes, he's joined me on this, even though he doesn't need to. :)

We found that popcorn can be a good choice, if we haven't over-extended ourselves on carbs for the day. Also, yummmmy honey-roasted peanuts! Woohoo.

So anyways, I've been flying somewhat. Some things I've let slide. I've been working a lot longer than 15 minutes at a time. I know I haven't been drinking enough. Sigh. I'm still doing more than I used to, but I know I should be doing more. At least now, with my "new" hubby, I'm getting alot more help, so that makes it easier. But it also makes it easier for me to slack off. LOL Ya just can't win, huh? :)

Well, that's my update. I'm hoping for good news at my ultrasound next week (NO, I'm not pregnant!), and that'll do wonders for my frame of mind, I have no doubt.

Till next time,
~Me

Fluttering once more

Well, on Saturday morning, Angel and I met up on yahoo to do a confab. It was nice to have someone to fly with for a while. I got a bit of work done.




Dawn, I do know the frustration and isolation that you are feeling right now. I have been making a huge effort to post. I don't have a scale, and I've never done my stats simply because I have yet to have an hour where Chris and I are both availible to do that. When we do, we are sleeping.




As always, I am making huge efforts to drink my daily alloted amount of water. A struggle, but I am managing to get close, if not meet it each day.




Hope to hear from everyone soon.

New Weight, plea for help

So, i finally weighed. i had to go to the doctor in the city i weigh in today. i'm at 239. That's good. i don't know how, i've been cheating like hell.
i am spiraling out of control. my house is getting messy, i'm exhausted, and i'm cheating on my diet. i'm not posting here as a should, or keeping my fitday, or doing my measurements. i need some support. Anyone have some time? i could use a flyconfab and some gentle nudging.
The doc is not happy with me. The shrink that is. i'm about 2 steps out of the loony bin. i desperately need to get back on track. If anyone is interested in getting rolling again, i would love it.
Hope you guys are well. i give my full support to you all, and would love to speak with you guys. Missing you.

Good Morning Ladies

Here I am again. Another beautiful morning. For me at least it is. The sun is shining and it's not too hot.




Not much got done this weekend because I had to go to my inlaws and replace the front passenger side breaks on my van. Now I think I am going to have to fix the ones on the driver's side as well. I hate working on vehicles.




Well, I am holding steady at 220 right now. Not losing, not gaining. Guess it's the best that I can do. Of course, I am still struggling with the wretched water, but, it has gotten much better since I discovered that I really do like water with lemons in it.




Anyway, hope all is well with everyone. Hopefully we'll see some updates soon.

Nasty bug...

Ugh! Hubby and I have been sick for the last few days. Coughing, sneezing, stuffy head, congestion, etc. etc . He came home early from work on Thursday, and we both laid out on Friday. He dragged himself back in yesterday morning, just because we couldn't afford for him not to.

Anyway, I've not really been exercising (unless you count olympic level coughing). I did, however, drag myself out of bed yesterday, make said bed, clean the den, and change the cat litter. I'm limping along on an injured wing here, but I'm still fluttering!

Intro...

Hi. I'm the new kid here. My name is Sassy, and I joined this blog because I need help 27 fling boogying my ass off! About me: I'm 27, happily married with a four year old daughter, a puppy, and a kitten. I don't have my stats yet, because aforementioned four year old decided at one point to use our scale as a trampoline....buuuut, I promise to have them soon. This morning I got up on time, got our daughter ready for preschool, then 27 fling boogied my way through our bedroom! I usually use the time before work for a quick walk, but hubby needed the bedroom seen to - and cleaning is exercise, right?

Anyway, I want to say a big thank you for letting me join the blog, and I hope I'll be an asset here.