ok, I suck

It's been forever since I've posted here. I'm sorry to those of you who do come to check us out and see what we're up to.

I get discouraged when I don't lose anything in weeks. I'm still losing inches, but not as many as I used to. I'm happy that spring is almost here and hopefully, warmer weather so I can get to walking again. I'm still hovering around 205, though I'd hit 203 and then the next day was up to 208! I keep gaining and losing those same 3 lbs or so, but I have alot to blame it on LOL

Hubby's out of work. He's home all the time. So I have alot of distraction and so I don't fly, I eat more and am rather disconnected.

It's making me nuts!!

But we're working on getting new routines set up so that we 're both happy. We're working on getting our business tarted up, plus we're going on "vacation" in about 10 days, which I'm DREADING because southern cooking is NOT low-carb. I AM very very excited to be meeting my fellow flybaby & blogmate and awesome friend, Angel, on the trip though! I'm going to spank her silly for falling on her butt, and then I'm gonna pick her up, dust her off and set her off flying once again.

So if you don't hear from me, that's why - I'm getting us all ready to travel and try to stay healthy. For now, here's how I celebrated hitting 75.



:)

~Me

Yay for us!

I've been doing alot of decluttering as well. I Freecycle whatever I can, and toss the rest out. It's GREAT to have clean spaces, and not have to deal with things that don't make us happy. Of course, it'll take me a while, but it's still better than hating living where you are.

Woohoo for us!

Decluttering FINALLY

So today i had an "ah ha moment." i realized that my house is crammed with stuff that doesn't make me smile. In fact, it makes me miserable. So... i'm getting rid of it.

Today i got rid of:
Two trash bags of clothes
A dvd stand
Two throw pillows
A table
Two Chairs
A Baker's Rack
A Microwave

And, i'm not done. This will continue. i will get this house decluttered and without all that weight... i just know i can soar!

slow week

So this was a slow week for me. I didn't fly much, mainly because I haven't been feeling very well. I didn't lose much because I didn't drink enough water, and that also led to the problem of "apparently, not enough fiber and so anyways, it's not been a great week.

However, I do have progress to report anyways. I've lost 68 inches and 75 lbs.! :) As a celebratory way of sharing my success, I have posted quite a few recipes on the recipe blog (My Tasty Space), and I'm also sharing my progress pics :)

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So, last night hubby & I got dressed up and went OUT! I wore a new outfit that hubby bought me (the 1st pic in the series was from last night). We went to where I used to work (a retail store), and I was so psyched when a woman who isn't exactly known for her enthusiasm about things, came over and said "OK... WHAT is the secret???" and proceeded to tell me how great I look, etc. It really felt GOOD to have other people who aren't my family or friends, acknowledge my progress so far. This morning, we went to the library and the librarian did the same thing! LOL Must be my week for kudos or something.

Anyways, I know that angel's been sick and then was tending to other sickies, so I'm hoping she's been behaving!

If not, I'll help her get back into gear!

Have a great week!

how cute!

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How It Happened

And God populated the earth with
Broccoli and cauliflower and
Spinach, green and yellow
Vegetables of all kinds,
So Man and Woman would
Live long and healthy lives.

And Satan created McDonald's.

And McDonald's brought forth the
99-cent double-cheeseburger.

And Satan said to Man,
"You want fries with that?"

And Man said, "Supersize them."
And Man gained pounds.

And God created the healthful yogurt,
That woman might keep her figure that
Man found so fair.

And Satan brought forth chocolate.
And woman gained pounds.

And God said, "Try my crispy fresh salad."
And Satan brought forth ice cream.
And woman gained pounds.

And God said, "I have sent your heart
Healthy vegetables and olive oil with
Which to cook them."

And Satan brought forth chicken-fried
Steak so big it needed its own platter.

And Man gained pounds and his
Bad cholesterol went through the roof.

And God brought forth
Running shoes and Man
Resolved to lose those extra pounds.

And Satan brought forth cable TV
With remote control so Man would
Not have to toil to change channels
Between ESPN and ESPN2.

And Man gained pounds.

And God said,
"You're running up the score, Devil."

And God brought forth the potato,
A vegetable naturally low in fat and
Brimming with nutrition.

And Satan peeled off the healthful skin
And sliced the starchy center into chips
And deep-fat fried them.

And he created sour cream dip also.

And Man clutched his remote control
And ate the potato chips
Swaddled in cholesterol.

And Satan saw and said, "It is good."

And Man went into cardiac arrest.

And God sighed and created
Quadruple bypass surgery.

And Satan created HMO's.
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my updated stats

66 inches, 73 lbs :)

and furthermore...

I also drank 128 ounces of water yesterday - I floated around the house!

But today, I'm down another lb on the scale, so I guess I'm convinced!

Dinner

Look at what a pretty dinner I made last night for the whole family. It was so simple to make!

Now, the chicken I used I'd already pre-cooked when I bought it (AWESOME deal on boneless breasts), so all I had to do was slice it into about 1/2" slices and then I put it in the frying pan with about a tbls. of olive oil. I sprinkled some cajun seasoning on it and let it heat up. When they were getting some color, I flipped and added some paprika (just a sprinkle to give it some color). Meanwhile, I put on the plate:

• 2 cups shredded lettuce
• 4 strips of fresh orange pepper
• some red onion on mine
• thinly sliced tomato wedges
• 1 tsp. milled flax seed
• 3 oz. chicken breast
  

I finished it off with 2 tbls of ranch dressing (after the photo) and it was awesome!

oops

Ok, I lost a pound LOL

Look mom, I'm A fish!

I drank 96 ounces of water yesterday. 96 OUNCES!!! I peed every 30 seconds. I had 10 carbs. ALL FREAKIN DAY.

I didn't lose an ounce.

I'm NOT happy.

I carted 7 loads of laundry back & forth across the street through the snow.

I did my dishes, shined my sink.

I vacuumed my room and folded and put away those 7 loads of clothes.

Not a friggin ounce.

GRRRRRRRR.

GODDAMN GODDESS

So, the closer we get to my birthday, the more i freak out. i DO NOT want to turn 29. i feel like i'm about ready to be put out to pasture. This is some sort of stupid mental block i have. i know plenty of women in their 40s and 50s i find incredibly hot and sexy. The last woman i had in my bed was 36 and she was steaming hot. i do not feel this way about other women, but for myself... Oh fuck it.

Anyway, i have decided that instead of my normal approach of whining, crying, and having a nervous breakdown, i am GOING TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. No, i can't change my age, but i CAN change how i feel about it. So this year, i am going to work on all the things that make me feel bad about myself. i am going to look forward to my 30th birthday, because after a year of hard work i am going to be a goddamn goddess.

Watch and see.

for the first time in a long time,

I am grateful for a new year! In the past, I've only looked at how lousy the previous year was and figured, well, great - another year to screw up in. I always felt like a slob. I don't feel like that anymore. Sure, my house still falls apart, but it's so much easier to pick it back up again. My kids and hubby are helping (sometimes) and that is SUCH a big boost for me. I am psyched. I took a bit of a vacation from my healthy eating habits in December, although our meals were almost always still healthy, all the extra crap (candy) was there and kept me from losing an ounce. I didn't gain, but I sure didn't lose. So now, all the candy is gone, except for the stuff I don't eat anyways (candy canes - yuck!) and I feel stronger again. I'm ready for 2006 and ready to hit my next goal of 180 by my birthday (March 12th for those of you wonderful readers who want to send gifts, money, etc!) lol I think I can do it, and I KNOW I will try!

As for you, my partner in crime - I'm SO PROUD OF YOU! Your change of attitude is what will get you through this. You've had a setback but you're not crying about it, you're DOING SOMETHING! Woohoo! Hopefully by the time we meet in March, I'll be at my goal and you will be closer to yours! *BIG HUGS*

New Year, New Dedication

So, here it is 2006. i am in such a good mood because all things are possible. For the first time ever i understand why everyone makes such a fuss about the new year. i feel like i have a brand new canvas to paint my life on.
Here are my resolutions for 2006.
1) Appreciate what i have more. Instead of focusing on what's wrong, learn to focus on what is RIGHT. And, that's a hell of a lot.

2) Stick to a healthier pattern of eating and exercising. i know i cannot be perfect all the time, and that its important to treat myself now and then. But, i also know i have to make a LIFESTYLE change. i made great strides with this in 2005. In 2006 i plan to move forward with this. Refining, replacing, and finding a lifestyle that works for me.

3) Continue my work on laying my past to rest and finding peace from it at last.

4) Bring order and routine to my life to increase my sense of stability and security. FLY routines, set bedtime and rise times, habits and self reliance.

There we go. This year, i am going to learn to soar.

happy (that it's over) holidays?

Well, I survived, although I cheated bigtime yesterday on the eating front. But according to the scale today, I'm no worse for the wear. At least so far. I'm still up about 4 lbs from the 210 I was so pleased to attain, though, and that's pissing me off royally! I'll be so happy to get all this candy out of my house!

But still, to end the year weighing 66 lbs less than I did when I started is an accomplishmnet, so I'll take it.

As for keeping things clean, it's really hard, but I try not to let it get me down. Trying to get routines down help, because if you have a routine, you KNOW you're gonna clean that part again tomorrow anyways. I mostly try to enjoy whatever IS clean while it is clean lol

I don't make resolutions, but I do plan on returning to my more strict eating style after the holidays are done and gone. I'm also going to figure out a new goal for my birthday, and hope to hit it :)

Fluttering

So, i'm trying. my house looks like a holiday tornado hit it, but i'm going fly it back into shape today. Out with Christmas and time to start preparing my house for the new year. i have oodles of resolutions, which i'll post closer to the actual day. The thing i'm having a hard time with right now, is learning to fly with my husband and the kids underfoot. i don't know how you do it Dawn. As quick as i clean something, they mess it up. Is it time for them to go back to work and school yet?

Crashed

i still exist. i have not been being very good on my diet. So while i have been good enough to not gain... i haven't lost any more either. i have to get back on track, but honestly right now, i'm just trying to not gain weight through the holidays.
i am still flying, but not in the totally great way i was. my house is not a disaster but always in a state of flux. i miss my old habits and routines. i slept better, felt better about myself, and was just generally DOING better.
i am trying to get back on track. my son is potty training and that is pretty hard to cope with. Autism and potty training are a recipe for insanity. However, i'm working on it. Things will be patchy with me until the new year. This time of year is just nuts. However at that point i will be putting a HUGE amount of my time and energy into getting back into the healthy habits and routines i had established. And, creating new ones.

Congratulations Dawn... i admire you and your willpower so much.